A passionless limbo.
So I dabbled. I followed the advice of my mother. I took a range of subjects, and did well when I chose to apply myself. I focused on a solid base in which any career could take off. I flirted with hobbies - writing, guitar, sewing, reading. …show more content…
I don’t know if one could even call it a “moment”. I was in the school library, wandering around, trying to occupy myself with something other than my homework. A passionless girl hiding from her calculus homework.
A real moment, right?
In my wandering, I happened upon a neglected corner of the library, and I curiously thumbed through the first few pages of a book there. My disillusioned notion was challenged as I continued reading, and completely rejected. I was intrigued. My blood rushing, my mind racing: I was taken back by my own fascination.
I guess it’s a little embarrassing. Or a lot. In retrospect, I don’t think I’d like if my peers knew the passion I felt while reading about the historical roots of public shaming in social media, or if they were there to see my sheer excitement as I read the preface of Neil Postman’s Amusing Ourselves To Death, an analysis on modern technology and the quality of culture. But that’s okay. I realized I loved comparing the books I read to the world around me. There’s something about it-- the inner workings of cultures and the people within those cultures-- that interests me to no end. I’m intrigued by the study of it and I’m inspired by it. I’m constantly left with an insatiable desire for