Being an outgoing person and a natural leader, the upperclassmen did not appreciate my constant input and take-charge attitude. I was shunned from my team, and every time I talked, I was told to “shut up” because I was a “stupid freshman.” I had never encountered such an intimidating team environment and I felt as if there was no escape, considering I spent at least two hours a day with my team. This negative environment led me to experience ‘freshman nerves’, causing me to underperform when I was under pressure. I didn’t believe my team had my back or was there for me, and it was hard for me to play confidently without the support of my teammates. Although I felt hurt and alone, I knew gaining the acceptance of my team wouldn’t be worth changing the person who I really
Being an outgoing person and a natural leader, the upperclassmen did not appreciate my constant input and take-charge attitude. I was shunned from my team, and every time I talked, I was told to “shut up” because I was a “stupid freshman.” I had never encountered such an intimidating team environment and I felt as if there was no escape, considering I spent at least two hours a day with my team. This negative environment led me to experience ‘freshman nerves’, causing me to underperform when I was under pressure. I didn’t believe my team had my back or was there for me, and it was hard for me to play confidently without the support of my teammates. Although I felt hurt and alone, I knew gaining the acceptance of my team wouldn’t be worth changing the person who I really