Personal Narrative-Traumatic Stress Disorder (ADD)

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Many years ago, roughly around the age of 12 I was diagnosed with ADD. I was having failing grades, no friends, even my teacher told my mother and I that I was the worst student she had ever had and that I would never amount to anything. In addition to this I had constant migraines. I think out of 181 days I missed 178 of them because I was at home lying of the floor, in tears, in the blacked out bath room, trying not to vomit everywhere. These incidents are just the start of many issues in my life. I was taken to a doctor do did some testing. I had an EEG done, which confirmed the migraines, and was officially diagnosed with ADD. I was put on two medications, and we convinced the school to allow me to attend a "second chance" course …show more content…
The migraines slowly improved. But even with good grades I was socially awkward, even the outsiders didn’t want hangout with me. People came to me for advise and that was it. I was the outcast fo the outcasts. It slowly became apparent to me that I hated everything. The situation at school, although making good grades, became even harder in high school. I started to notice that I could only think of the negative things going on in my life. I would dwell on insignificant things, and the way people thought about me to the point of obsesion. There were also a lot of issues at home as well. I was the oldest of 3 children, and by this point myparents were on rocky ground. Even on my birthday they were fighingt, and my mom was throughing my birhtday breakfast at my father. She slept on the sofa, refuse to clean, cook, and would go out driving until early morning hours. Iwould have to come home and cook and clean. I woyuld get in fights with my father because I didn’t want to eat hamburgers, or hamburger helper again, I hated it so muchi would go hungry. All of these negative things kept happening. then finally I made a friend, who felt a lot of the ways I did, which was good and bad. She was into self mutilation, she told me it …show more content…
That there was more to ADD than just an issue with attention, I was suffering from sever depression. It was discovered that I had a chemical imbalance, made worse by situational depression, made even worse by the medication I was taken for the ADD.

One of the developmental concepts that I went through here was severe clinical depression. It happens to be a common occurrence it affects about one in five girls and one in ten boys (book). Depression is very common to appear with ADD children, not just chemically, but the lack of attention and social stress, and awkwardness increase the likelyhood developming depression. Rumination also occurs a lot more, especially for females, which coupled with ADD which we already over think as it is.

Another concept is identity vs role confusiton.. This was Eriksons fifth psychococial crisis. During this tim I had a lot of role confusion. I had no clue who I was, or what I wanted to do. Constantly dwelling on everything without being about to stick with a decisions made things more difficult.. I was to the point that doing simple choirs, and school became a chore. I was disorganized, procrastinated, and avoided unwanted attention. I still am today, which makes it difficult to know myself. Is it rold confusion or

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