Garcia.Session1.Journal
My childhood is filled with good memories, birthday parties, family dinners and abundance of things,
food and stories. But on the other end of the spectrum, is sadness, avoidance, and a lack of love.
Looking back I see that my parents did the best they could. I also see how my mother’s childhood
influenced the way she raised us. I see how the loss of my father’s first family caused him to be
somewhat distant.
As a teenager, I was moody, didn’t like affection and had an almost ‘victim’ like take on life. The
moodiness was masked depression which caused the avoidance of a lot of things, mainly school. At this
point in my life I was living with my dad and try as he might, he couldn’t get me to go to …show more content…
I ditched so much my freshman year I had to re-take it. I made an attempt at an alternative
school, but found it no different.
The desire to go back to school didn’t become a nagging feeling until I gave my life to God in 2008. And
from winter of 2008 until March of this year there was always a reason not to go. I think that’s because I
wasn’t living my life for God. My life was like the parable of the mustard seed, my faith wasn’t rooted so
it blew away in the wind. In those 8 years there were so many lessons. Years of partying, a failed
engagement, a disastrous rebound relationship and full out battles with my family, especially with my
mom. Loosing friendships and quitting jobs. As I put pen to paper now, I’m blown away at the common
denominator, I quit things. I ran from everyone and everything that was hard or trying. But God never
ran from me, he was always there telling me what not to do. I’m sure he guided me towards things, but I
can’t seem to see that so clearly. I do however see God’s grace, his love and protection when I did
nothing to deserve it.
Steadily for the past 8 years whether intentional or not, I’ve been turning back to God, …show more content…
Legal issues
arose due to the drug use and she found herself and my teenage brother living with me. A few weeks in
after ending said habit, I found drugs in her handbag and I before I could think, I reacted and kicked her
out and told her she couldn’t take my brother.
For the year following I spent my days, learning how to parent a teenager, in court rooms fighting my
mom, crying out to God in the locker room at work and seeking council from basically any seemingly
sound minded adult. These months shaped and grew me. I was less OCD, realizing that my home would
never be spotless for more than an hour at best ever again. My diet and exercise regimen which had
become consuming became more relaxed. Because teenagers don’t eat of 4oz. lean protein, two cups of
veggies and a tablespoon of MCT oil for dinner, they do however need and expect dinner each night. I
became less selfish because it was no longer just about me. I learned that God is to be my ‘go to’ source
of council and that in his timing he works everything together for my good. On March 8th we went to
court to discuss the allocation of parental rights, on March 9th I took that day off from work to have
My childhood is filled with good memories, birthday parties, family dinners and abundance of things,
food and stories. But on the other end of the spectrum, is sadness, avoidance, and a lack of love.
Looking back I see that my parents did the best they could. I also see how my mother’s childhood
influenced the way she raised us. I see how the loss of my father’s first family caused him to be
somewhat distant.
As a teenager, I was moody, didn’t like affection and had an almost ‘victim’ like take on life. The
moodiness was masked depression which caused the avoidance of a lot of things, mainly school. At this
point in my life I was living with my dad and try as he might, he couldn’t get me to go to …show more content…
I ditched so much my freshman year I had to re-take it. I made an attempt at an alternative
school, but found it no different.
The desire to go back to school didn’t become a nagging feeling until I gave my life to God in 2008. And
from winter of 2008 until March of this year there was always a reason not to go. I think that’s because I
wasn’t living my life for God. My life was like the parable of the mustard seed, my faith wasn’t rooted so
it blew away in the wind. In those 8 years there were so many lessons. Years of partying, a failed
engagement, a disastrous rebound relationship and full out battles with my family, especially with my
mom. Loosing friendships and quitting jobs. As I put pen to paper now, I’m blown away at the common
denominator, I quit things. I ran from everyone and everything that was hard or trying. But God never
ran from me, he was always there telling me what not to do. I’m sure he guided me towards things, but I
can’t seem to see that so clearly. I do however see God’s grace, his love and protection when I did
nothing to deserve it.
Steadily for the past 8 years whether intentional or not, I’ve been turning back to God, …show more content…
Legal issues
arose due to the drug use and she found herself and my teenage brother living with me. A few weeks in
after ending said habit, I found drugs in her handbag and I before I could think, I reacted and kicked her
out and told her she couldn’t take my brother.
For the year following I spent my days, learning how to parent a teenager, in court rooms fighting my
mom, crying out to God in the locker room at work and seeking council from basically any seemingly
sound minded adult. These months shaped and grew me. I was less OCD, realizing that my home would
never be spotless for more than an hour at best ever again. My diet and exercise regimen which had
become consuming became more relaxed. Because teenagers don’t eat of 4oz. lean protein, two cups of
veggies and a tablespoon of MCT oil for dinner, they do however need and expect dinner each night. I
became less selfish because it was no longer just about me. I learned that God is to be my ‘go to’ source
of council and that in his timing he works everything together for my good. On March 8th we went to
court to discuss the allocation of parental rights, on March 9th I took that day off from work to have