Characteristics Of Who I Am

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There are several features about me that describe who I am. For instance; I can be funny, kind, intelligent and headstrong. However, I suffer from acute shyness and tend to panic easily and at times it has caused problems in my personal life. Such as writing essays about myself or having the confidence to stand in front of a room of my peers and present, but my shyness does not define who I am or what I stand for. What defines me are my passions such as animals and biology, my fears and anxieties, and my welcoming and perky personality. My fears aren’t something I can just get over; they stem from instances from my life I cannot control. My personality masks this problem. No one notices my fears because I’m such an enjoyable person. If I didn’t …show more content…
I do have two diagnosed anxieties: Astraphobia and Hoplophobia. Astraphobia is the irrational fear of lightning. I have not had this all my life, when I was a child I loved to play outside in a lightning storm (in any weather really). This changed when lightning struck several feet in front of me as I was playing one day. Since then, I have had to keep myself from panicking during a bad storm. Hoplophobia is the irrational fear of firearms, in my case it is the fear of holding and/or firing a gun. I never knew I had this anxiety until high school when I started dating this guy Charles. He asked me to go shooting with him at the range and out of nowhere I began shaking all over; I was terrified at the idea. I’ve done a good job at hiding these things about me. Most people in my life don’t know about my phobias. This includes my mother and father. I work hard to try to get over it, but so far I have only learned to control my panic. I continue to improve upon these flaws, so they cannot worsen and become a problem later, but they have not affected my …show more content…
Many people say I embody the season of spring because I’m so vibrant, especially when I am not in a crowd. Due to my acute shyness, I get nervous in a crowded room, but this doesn’t stop me from trying to branch out in my own ways and break out of my shell. Often time people have found me waving to strangers in the cars passing by, but those people unfortunately, rarely ever reciprocate this action. In the aspect of color, the one that would best describe me is yellow, because I’m almost never mellow, but people tell me the color I look best in is blue. I get so many compliments when I wear this color. Most of said compliments come from my boyfriend though. There is only one person who knows me completely, and that would be my after-mentioned boyfriend, Evan. We’re like fluorine atoms, inseparable! He means everything to me and I can’t imagine what I would do if anything tragic were to happen to him. Sometimes the thoughts of such bring me into a panic; because then who would understand me, or take the time to listen to my constant ramblings and irrational fears, or just give me this level of

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