Firstly, Fountain expresses that looking at the past may be shameful and regretful. The author mentions an episode of her life when she, and her female friend, go to the dessert and get drunk with a group of guys. Also, as the kids get drunk they start “to beat / the living shit out of over and over again” (6 – 7) of the most vulnerable guy amongst them. As can be seen, when she opens her poem she mentions that “When I think of everything I’ve wanted / I feel sick” (1 – 2). In the light of that, is …show more content…
Now, “Jennifer [her friend] asked for advice / on things she’d already done” (20 – 21). Moreover, it may seem like she, the author, never passed through that stage of her life. Also, she lived the story in the poem with her friend, and in contrast to her Jennifer, Fountain meditated about the events that took place on that winter night. Now, those events have shaped her, as she says, “if we’d been quiet [making reference to having never done anything bold] / we wouldn’t have heard anything and that / silence, too, would have ruined us” (31 – 33). In short, she understands that all the past events of her life, as the title of her poem suggests, are “experience” that will go along with her, throughout the journey of her