Today I will be writing about my thoughts and feelings.
Today I was feeling very depressed and lonely. I thought of myself as being swallowed up by a black void. The void is my self doubt of me making it after high school as I move ever closer to graduation. Please don’t misunderstand me I want to graduate, but the thought of me moving beyond this stage in life is like a vise grip on my heart causing me to sabotage myself I never thought I could be more than just some big black guy, I knew when I was still in treatment that I would end up doing something involving manual labor because of my size, but the moment I started to change that belief I feel as if the universe has been doing everything