I know you 've heard of how women get their asses beat by their husbands or boyfriends and how they end up leaving and going right back. Well as a child of domestic abuse myself, when I was younger I could never understand why my mom never got her shit together, took us kids and just left. I told myself that I was NEVER going to be that type of stupid woman over a man.
But now I understand why, or at least, I realize what has prevented me from leaving and staying stay gone forever. I don 't know the details of why other women have stayed, but I know that in each of our own separate reasons, it had to be something incredible that held us there. I 'm going to just mention mine without trying to sound like I 'm making excuses which at first I …show more content…
By our second year of marriage, I was already mentally f*cked up anyway because of his treatment. I was scared of him. He would monitor my mileage on my car. He would get upset if I didn 't call or text hm immediately back, he would get jealous if another guy even looked at me or I at them, he would interrogate me as to why I had taken so long to get from here to there, he would do really insecure stuff like that. I was paranoid and was walking on egg shells by that point. He had threatened to take my son if I tried to leave and that even if I did, he would be the one who was awarded custody because I didn 't have a job and I suffered from major depression. As he called it, "unstable." He would say "if you don 't want to be here, then you can just go back to your mama!" But he knew very she lived in a tiny apartment on section 8 housing. I didn 't come from the typical family where if I had troubles in the marriage I could go back home to an awaiting father and mother living in a large 5 bedroom house, where the meals were furnished and I had all the love and support I could ever dream of from friends and family. I had NOTHING to go back to, and he knew it. I always felt like he had the upper hand. And he knew that
But now I understand why, or at least, I realize what has prevented me from leaving and staying stay gone forever. I don 't know the details of why other women have stayed, but I know that in each of our own separate reasons, it had to be something incredible that held us there. I 'm going to just mention mine without trying to sound like I 'm making excuses which at first I …show more content…
By our second year of marriage, I was already mentally f*cked up anyway because of his treatment. I was scared of him. He would monitor my mileage on my car. He would get upset if I didn 't call or text hm immediately back, he would get jealous if another guy even looked at me or I at them, he would interrogate me as to why I had taken so long to get from here to there, he would do really insecure stuff like that. I was paranoid and was walking on egg shells by that point. He had threatened to take my son if I tried to leave and that even if I did, he would be the one who was awarded custody because I didn 't have a job and I suffered from major depression. As he called it, "unstable." He would say "if you don 't want to be here, then you can just go back to your mama!" But he knew very she lived in a tiny apartment on section 8 housing. I didn 't come from the typical family where if I had troubles in the marriage I could go back home to an awaiting father and mother living in a large 5 bedroom house, where the meals were furnished and I had all the love and support I could ever dream of from friends and family. I had NOTHING to go back to, and he knew it. I always felt like he had the upper hand. And he knew that