Ninth grade was probably the hardest year of school I 've ever had. The work was one thing but I made it even more hard on myself than it should have been. I made some horrible choices that year and have learned from that experience luckily. I don 't exactly regret my choices at all actually, because if they never happened then I wouldn 't be the person I am right now, but I still look back on them wondering what I was even thinking. My reputation is basically ruined and I 'm still currently trying to fix it. I hear jokes about it all the time, if not daily. The jokes don 't bother me at all, I 'm fine with laughing about the situation but that just proves how everyone thinks of my reputation. It 's a lot better than it was though, it 's definitely
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I was dating Brandon at the time and he wasn 't any help to my bad choices, if anything he was just even more fuel to the fire. I was so tired in the school mornings while they seemed so awake and happy. I got curious and wondered how much fun it really was to join them on that "walk" they went on every morning across the street of the school. They introduced me to their bad habits and I slowly started to pick up those bad habits too, leaving the school grounds every day before first hour. I was never into cigarettes like all those other kids were though, they all smoked one or two before they had to make the jog back to school and I just found it painful to watch then as they ran out breath with every step they took, their lungs collapsing with every cigarette they smoked. I just found it so horrible. The first few times I joined them at that corner across the street, I didn 't feel like I belonged. I would awkwardly stand there while things were being passed around until one day, someone offered me some. Don 't get me wrong, that wasn 't my first time ever smoking weed before but it was still pretty new to me and I had never done it before school. I didn 't want to look stupid though so I said why not and joined them. It became an everyday habit, it became my morning cup of coffee. I felt like without it I was so drained of emotions and
I was dating Brandon at the time and he wasn 't any help to my bad choices, if anything he was just even more fuel to the fire. I was so tired in the school mornings while they seemed so awake and happy. I got curious and wondered how much fun it really was to join them on that "walk" they went on every morning across the street of the school. They introduced me to their bad habits and I slowly started to pick up those bad habits too, leaving the school grounds every day before first hour. I was never into cigarettes like all those other kids were though, they all smoked one or two before they had to make the jog back to school and I just found it painful to watch then as they ran out breath with every step they took, their lungs collapsing with every cigarette they smoked. I just found it so horrible. The first few times I joined them at that corner across the street, I didn 't feel like I belonged. I would awkwardly stand there while things were being passed around until one day, someone offered me some. Don 't get me wrong, that wasn 't my first time ever smoking weed before but it was still pretty new to me and I had never done it before school. I didn 't want to look stupid though so I said why not and joined them. It became an everyday habit, it became my morning cup of coffee. I felt like without it I was so drained of emotions and