Seeing that Winston has more human emotions naturally, he must go through the ups and downs that come along with these emotions. What is shown when he speaks to O’Brien, “‘They’ve got you too!’ he cried. ‘They got me a long time ago,’ said O’Brien with a mild, almost regretful irony. ... ‘You know this, Winston,’ said O’Brien. ‘Don’t deceive yourself. You did know it—you have always known it.’” (238-239) Winston is in denial of O’Brien’s actions and position thanks to his feelings clouding his rational thinking. Winston tries so hard to keep his new found humanity, that he wants O’Brien to agree with him when he says, “‘But it did exist! It does exist! It exists in memory. I remember it. You remember it.’ ‘I do not remember it,’ said O’Brien. Winston’s heart sank. That was doublethink. He had a feeling of deadly helplessness.” (247) Unfortunately he is so desperate to have O 'Brian be on his side that he can’t see the lies being told to him in his face. Due to Winston’s original feelings toward O’Brien, he still thinks that they are still against the Party together; “He had never loved him so deeply as at this moment, and not merely because he had stopped the pain. The old feeling, that at bottom it did not matter whether O’Brien was a friend or an enemy, had come back. … It made no difference. In some sense that went deeper than friendship, they were intimates.” (252) Winston just wants one person in this world that understands him to the fullest no matter who they really are; showing that his emotions in the end got the better of
Seeing that Winston has more human emotions naturally, he must go through the ups and downs that come along with these emotions. What is shown when he speaks to O’Brien, “‘They’ve got you too!’ he cried. ‘They got me a long time ago,’ said O’Brien with a mild, almost regretful irony. ... ‘You know this, Winston,’ said O’Brien. ‘Don’t deceive yourself. You did know it—you have always known it.’” (238-239) Winston is in denial of O’Brien’s actions and position thanks to his feelings clouding his rational thinking. Winston tries so hard to keep his new found humanity, that he wants O’Brien to agree with him when he says, “‘But it did exist! It does exist! It exists in memory. I remember it. You remember it.’ ‘I do not remember it,’ said O’Brien. Winston’s heart sank. That was doublethink. He had a feeling of deadly helplessness.” (247) Unfortunately he is so desperate to have O 'Brian be on his side that he can’t see the lies being told to him in his face. Due to Winston’s original feelings toward O’Brien, he still thinks that they are still against the Party together; “He had never loved him so deeply as at this moment, and not merely because he had stopped the pain. The old feeling, that at bottom it did not matter whether O’Brien was a friend or an enemy, had come back. … It made no difference. In some sense that went deeper than friendship, they were intimates.” (252) Winston just wants one person in this world that understands him to the fullest no matter who they really are; showing that his emotions in the end got the better of