Narrative Essay About Recovery

The thought of gaining weight is what scares many away from the recovery they so badly want from their eating disorder. It seems like the end of the world. As if, if you surrender your control, you will completley go overboard and end up obese. Not to mention you've "worked so hard" for all that weight you've lost and the idea of throwing that away infuriates you. No matter how bad you want to recover and how badly you want to feel normal again, these ideas you've envisioned of what recovery will cause you are far from worth it.
Believe me, I've been there. I hear you.
But I promise you, it is more worth it than you could ever imagine.

When I was pushed into recovery I felt exactly as you may feel, like everyone was sabotaging me; betraying me; every single person that was trying to help me, in my mind, was out to get me. Saying that gaining weight terrified me is far from an understatement. I …show more content…
I wasn't allowed to do vigurous exercise for the first year of my recovery, so if you're in that boat, I understand how that can make you feel even more uncomfortable. This is when I began to find a love for yoga and pilates, moving my body in more of a calm manner, focusing on individual stretches and breathe. If you're allowed to exercise, find exercises that you enjoy. If you enjoy running, run but try to stay away from hours on the treadmill. Instead, try swimming, boxing, weight lifting, etc. Moving your body through exercise will help channel any stress you may be feeling from the recovery process. It'll also encourage you to eat more. However, know when to stop, if you can't trust yourself not to use exercise as a form of purging, you most likely need to stay away from it for a couple months. Now that I'm allowed to exercise as I wish, I've found weight lifting to serve as the main assistance in my recovery process. It shifts my thinking to feeding my body to give it added strength, looking at food as fuel rather than the