Ap Lang Reflection

As a, Agender Queer Chicanx I navigate the world as someone that constantly has to evaluate the way I look and behave otherwise I risk putting myself in danger. When I walk into a room I have to make sure that my demeanor and vocal tone are palatable, or risk being profiled and seen as a danger to those around me. When I see law enforcement, I have to automatically start accessing all of my actions of the day to make sure I did not break some law or raise my voice to high. My daily day walking about and taking public transit is clouded with the need to be presentable and be an upstanding citizen or else. All that at a personal level, but maintained by a society that forces me to conform, adapt and be seen as “one of the good ones” in order to live and be seen as worthy of human decency. While, I go about worrying of how others perceive me attempting to be myself, I also walk around with the knowledge that all of these things are maintained and controlled by a system that needs me to constantly worry so that I do not get out of line. This reflection will consist …show more content…
For better or worse, the visual queue that is my skin narrates the way in which all my other identities are seen. In a Queer and Trans Space for example, it does not matter if I’m Queer/Trans, because a White queer and trans person will always question my existence in that space. Be it just asking what I’m doing there, to just giving an inquisitive look, in these predominantly white spaces I must justify my being there. With these experiences I must be cautious of how I make others feel when they enter a space and insure that I am able to see them as a whole person and not just an identity I will be able to provide a holistic approach to providing support and resources to students that seek