Angst: A Short Story

Angst Never have I been more anxious, agitated, or petrified about something that nearly everyone experiences. My heart was palpitating like a bell that was being struck powerfully, and its beat rang throughout my entire body and out my ears to stand as an eerie reminder that I was falling under the weight of a high school crush. Soon that weight would be lifted or it would only be magnified by the feeling of rejection. It wasn’t as if I hadn’t dealt with both before, but that was when the concept was still new to me and the idea of a romantic relationship at that age was awkwardly holding hands in the distance and was far from serious. Now I had felt more mature because I had an understanding of the gravity of sharing your personal life …show more content…
However, as soon as I laid my head down it began to drip with a cold sweat, my tongue was pale and my mouth felt as if it were lined with cotton. Each breath became drier and I felt more nauseated as time crawled forward. The night felt protracted as I slowly realized that I likely wasn’t going to be falling asleep. Nevertheless, I received around an hour of proper shuteye, but the long, arduous night had left the stinging taste of dehydration in my mouth when I awoke. Sleep also had failed to give me peace of mind as I was still anxious. Admittedly, I knew that these feelings were a bit ridiculous considering it was just a high school crush, but I couldn’t help but be bewildered at the novelty of the situation. Granted, she had already informed me that she liked me, but I still felt as if I needed to look the best I could to make a good impression. Therefore, I groomed my mop-like hair to the best of my ability so that my face was visible. For the only time in my life I actually made sure that my clothes had matched in color, and foolishly I attempted to smile as well as I could in the mirror. I doused myself with such an absurd amount of cologne that my own father could smell it from several feet away and mentioned that I stunk more like liquor than I did cologne because of the inappropriate amount I had used. The …show more content…
Having realized that I would be tardy to the first bell, I immediately commenced the relationship by giving a tight and uncomfortable hug as well as saying that I loved her within a measly minute. Looking back, I tease myself for attempting to treat the entire event so delicately and as soon as the hard part had passed, I immaturely recited such a serious quote with little regard to what it actually meant. By no means is saying that you love someone a statement you say within seconds of the other person saying yes. It’s an utterly cliché, typical, and exaggerated situation that I see occur each day in the halls of my school, yet it feels so personal from person to person, and more especially, to