He had his first corrective surgery at 17, and everything went very well. However, in 2005 his back began to deteriorate and the rods needed to be changed. He underwent surgery and the doctor completely ruined his back, by putting rods in that were to short and the wrong kind. From here he got progressively worse, he was in so much pain that he became addicted to his pain medicine, he began drinking more and more to numb the pain. Through this process he became aggressive, he began mentally, physically and emotionally abusive to my mother, my sister, and myself. There were times I feared things would be come so bad that we would not make it the out. After years of agonizing abuse and living in a constant state of fear, my mother and I finally were removed from the house with the desecration of the Fresno Police. While I will not dive into every aspect of those very long years, I shared this story to address that I carried a buried of anger and resentment for years. I have to admit that there are times where I still reminisce in the moments from my past and become anger at my father for what he had done to us and put us through. “You will not be punished for your anger, you be punished by your anger.” (Buddha) This quote offered me a different understanding of my anger, it allowed me to understand that it was ok to feel anger but not for anger to be able to control me. Just as we had discussed in lecture, everyone get angry its what we do with the anger that is the
He had his first corrective surgery at 17, and everything went very well. However, in 2005 his back began to deteriorate and the rods needed to be changed. He underwent surgery and the doctor completely ruined his back, by putting rods in that were to short and the wrong kind. From here he got progressively worse, he was in so much pain that he became addicted to his pain medicine, he began drinking more and more to numb the pain. Through this process he became aggressive, he began mentally, physically and emotionally abusive to my mother, my sister, and myself. There were times I feared things would be come so bad that we would not make it the out. After years of agonizing abuse and living in a constant state of fear, my mother and I finally were removed from the house with the desecration of the Fresno Police. While I will not dive into every aspect of those very long years, I shared this story to address that I carried a buried of anger and resentment for years. I have to admit that there are times where I still reminisce in the moments from my past and become anger at my father for what he had done to us and put us through. “You will not be punished for your anger, you be punished by your anger.” (Buddha) This quote offered me a different understanding of my anger, it allowed me to understand that it was ok to feel anger but not for anger to be able to control me. Just as we had discussed in lecture, everyone get angry its what we do with the anger that is the