He says, “Mother darling, everything’s getting so dark in here...why won’t you give me your hand?”(Ch.3-4) When he jokes around with Ackley by saying those things, is he really joking? By “everything’s getting so dark,” he refers to himself slowly losing his innocence or way in life. He is getting sucked into the darkness, and he wants his mother to stop him from doing so. But as stated before, his mother doesn’t help and Holden sinks further into the darkness. He brushes it off and tries to act nonchalant about it by playing it off as a joke or by trying to make his emotions and suffering seem insignificant. He doesn’t have the “catcher” he needs to express and release his inner emotions …show more content…
At the end of the book, Holden discovers that only he can be a reliable “Catcher” for himself. He realizes that he doesn’t need his parents or anyone else to support him, but he had to go through a lot of suffering before realizing this. Instead of returning to his parents, he roams around town drinking and smoking, which shows his unwillingness to return to them. His need for a “Catcher” causes him to make dangerous decisions and almost puts him in a position where he could have been raped. He is also unable to verbally express his need for love and support. He feels as if he doesn 't need it because he is already so accustomed to not having it. Holden was stained early by society because his parents allowed it by not protecting him. Holden’s life, as a result, was left in complete disarray, and he experienced many things that a young 17 year old should not have