Because of the incident, she becomes blind in one eye and due to prolonged medical attention a scar is left there that causes her eye to stray away when not paid attention to. Walker abhors her “ugly” self because of her eye and shies away from raising her head at people scared that society will notice her and judge. She says, “That night, as I do almost every night, I abuse my eye. I rant and ravee at it, in front of the mirror. I plead with it to clear up before morning. I tell it I hate and despise it. I do not pray for sight. I pray for beauty” (274). Alice Walker pushes herself everyday since the incident to try and erase what has happened, but no attempt made it. She was used to the bombardment of compliments that she received when she was younger but due to her brother’s shooting her in the eye, she perceived herself as not beautiful. She says this as a sort of prayer to whatever she believes in and wishes for the scar to almost every night. She asks people whether it was still there, but nevertheless it remained. She refused to take a glance above mouth level in fear that the stares of judgement. She could have gotten medical attention the instant she was impacted, but with her brothers threatening her with a punishment if she told her parents, it was much too late for the doctor to treat her when she arrived a week after the accident. She explains the struggles of her life as she moves to a new community and a whole new group of people get to see her. Everything that Walker knew about herself kept deteriorating as the memory of of the accident and the accident itself slowly ruined her
Because of the incident, she becomes blind in one eye and due to prolonged medical attention a scar is left there that causes her eye to stray away when not paid attention to. Walker abhors her “ugly” self because of her eye and shies away from raising her head at people scared that society will notice her and judge. She says, “That night, as I do almost every night, I abuse my eye. I rant and ravee at it, in front of the mirror. I plead with it to clear up before morning. I tell it I hate and despise it. I do not pray for sight. I pray for beauty” (274). Alice Walker pushes herself everyday since the incident to try and erase what has happened, but no attempt made it. She was used to the bombardment of compliments that she received when she was younger but due to her brother’s shooting her in the eye, she perceived herself as not beautiful. She says this as a sort of prayer to whatever she believes in and wishes for the scar to almost every night. She asks people whether it was still there, but nevertheless it remained. She refused to take a glance above mouth level in fear that the stares of judgement. She could have gotten medical attention the instant she was impacted, but with her brothers threatening her with a punishment if she told her parents, it was much too late for the doctor to treat her when she arrived a week after the accident. She explains the struggles of her life as she moves to a new community and a whole new group of people get to see her. Everything that Walker knew about herself kept deteriorating as the memory of of the accident and the accident itself slowly ruined her