Everyone wants relationship goals of Romeo and Juliet or Edward and Bella. I want relationship how I want to picture of it. Myself and someone who will love me who I am. I always loved the dark side, the mysterious that never shows. I'm different to average people. I could say I'm unique also but, we could all say that.
One day I found a journal with poems and unique drawings I never seen. Powerful writing that touched my heart. This journal belonged to Christine Valentine dated in 2018. The cover of the journal was leather-bound with a honeybee printed on it. Very strange to see a single honeybee on the cover. I wonder what it stands for? When you open the journal, you will see a title "Knife to my Heart".
One thing I realized I had been in horrible …show more content…
I held huge thing about a year and it felt horrible to be honest. I needed to tell someone what he did to me. Something I wouldn't forget. Darkness can follow you even you try to run from it. It consumed me. Swallowed me whole. It's like a shadow but starts off small and gradually grows. I flinch whenever my boyfriend touches me because I fear it's him. I saw the devil in his eyes. The wicked devil with smirk on his face. That’s what I see. I know there are different types of devils but he was the monster. A monster that sucks you up slowly even you're not realizing it. How am I to heal from this? All I know that I'm in pain. I remember the days I sat on my bed thinking why I deserve this? The day I saw you at the mall with you mom even though you didn't see me, I Panicked. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't control my breathing. I was scared because I don't want to see you ever again. But, there are days I do want to see you. Not to start over but experience
again or two. I was petrified of who are and you become. As days past my anxiety grew. Depression hit me fast. It felt like you are crossing a road and suddenly get hit by a
One day I found a journal with poems and unique drawings I never seen. Powerful writing that touched my heart. This journal belonged to Christine Valentine dated in 2018. The cover of the journal was leather-bound with a honeybee printed on it. Very strange to see a single honeybee on the cover. I wonder what it stands for? When you open the journal, you will see a title "Knife to my Heart".
One thing I realized I had been in horrible …show more content…
I held huge thing about a year and it felt horrible to be honest. I needed to tell someone what he did to me. Something I wouldn't forget. Darkness can follow you even you try to run from it. It consumed me. Swallowed me whole. It's like a shadow but starts off small and gradually grows. I flinch whenever my boyfriend touches me because I fear it's him. I saw the devil in his eyes. The wicked devil with smirk on his face. That’s what I see. I know there are different types of devils but he was the monster. A monster that sucks you up slowly even you're not realizing it. How am I to heal from this? All I know that I'm in pain. I remember the days I sat on my bed thinking why I deserve this? The day I saw you at the mall with you mom even though you didn't see me, I Panicked. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't control my breathing. I was scared because I don't want to see you ever again. But, there are days I do want to see you. Not to start over but experience
again or two. I was petrified of who are and you become. As days past my anxiety grew. Depression hit me fast. It felt like you are crossing a road and suddenly get hit by a