Factors That Contribute To My Academic Situation

The factors that contributed to my academic difficulties were my family and my own personal situation. No one is smarter than me and I am not dumber than anyone would think. My family situation is very challenging. Not only we go through a lot of financial issues, but I am recently going through a phase that I feel like I suffer from my own mental health. My family keeps me busy and I appreciate what they given me and done for me. I feel pressured all the time. Especially when I was a little girl facing domestic violence with my mother, my head would be hit a lot because I was stupid as my elementary school grades reflected it a lot. I was pressured from my father to study harder and it was not easy studying with an alcoholic that seemed very …show more content…
I couldn’t pay attention to anything. I have gotten in trouble a lot and I hang out with the wrong group of students who got me in trouble and suffered my grades in danger. My dream is to become a cardiologist because I want to be a somebody. Not represented as a Mexican teenager with kids and on welfare. I hate the words “stripper” and “prostitute”. Other people may see it in me but the truth is, I am more professional than what others think. I am a college level student that made it this far in high school without thinking of dropping out. Ever since I started high school, I decided to change by getting good grades and be more active instead of being shy and not outgoing. Of course that would make me less competitive to colleges as I am now. I now believe in myself. People would be telling me that I should be a nurse instead of a doctor because it is more suitable for me. Well my question is that “How am I any different? Do you not see me as a doctor? I do.” I want to be a doctor because I believe I can do it. I believe I can save people, including my …show more content…
That aching pain in my heart brought the devil in me and started talking to nasty men online because I was desperate. I would be less worried about homework and more into sex, even though I was not ready. I was ready to sell myself and commit suicide at the park right where I sit out alone by my school because the rich kids were very rude to me, spoiled, and unappreciative to their community. I would text random men and meet them up at the library almost near night time because I was an evil girl and I really regret it. Sometimes at night I cry to myself saying I wish I have never done that. Letting disgusting men touch a 14 year old minor. I tried stopping myself but the devil was still in me and I could not take life anymore. I would stay up until 5 am in the morning because I had depression and insomnia. I would never tell my parents anything because they would pressure me and even punish me severely of what I could not control. Even though I almost got raped, I am glad I changed the way I thought of myself. The man I met up with, I ignored him and I am glad he was not violent or dangerous because I would not be alive today if he was. I had very poor grades and no one understand the loner