I don't even know no what to say I can't even grasp a word or any words to describe a fraction of a similar definition as to how I'm feeling. Though it's a familiar wine I can't say it's the same type of pain or heart rate because it's not I always knew I had one coming I guess after the abortion like I told you awhile back but I didn't know that you were capable that your heart was capable of doing something so that nature and that's why I couldn't even look at you I've never felt a feeling like this because I've never trusted a single soul not even mad I never trusted a single soul the way I trusted in you and when she showed me messages between two of you since back in the beginning of December I couldn't believe my eyes I didn't want to
