Katherine had played their game for almost a week she had been through this before. “Do you hear voices?”
“No” she said looking down to the floor speaking low and angrily. Katherine thought to herself What I hear is no one's business. I am not going to be fooled into confessing anything. I know what they are looking for and I know what to say to make them leave me alone.
“How are you feeling?”
“Fine”, she replied trying to give nothing away. Let them see that they had no right to bring me here. I’ve had done nothing wrong. This time I did not even hit Melanie, so there was nothing out of hand. The voices she heard never told her what to do, they just called her name quietly enough to make her know they were there, but never in charge. …show more content…
They do not make me feel better. I know what I need better than he.
She fumed as she thought about the unfairness of those pills, not the pills she liked to take. Dr. McKinney had made it clear to her,the staff, and to her family that she gets none of those that she had become so dependent on to make her feel happy and alive. He had taken great pains to make her hear him when he told her “We are only going to allow you to use the drugs that we provide. No more self medicating at home.” He told her family “Drugs that could actually help her, not just make things worse.” She heard every word and she was furious.
Didn’t they realize that this medicine they keep giving me is causing me to stress out. I only want to be calm. I want to be calm…calm. The stupid medicine is making it harder to play their game. On occasion, she had made admissions that she really had not meant to say. She told the voice inside her head, “This was getting dangerous for me.”
Once Dr. McKinney left the room, she laid on the bed waiting for the lunch hour. She laid on the bed and seethed. Listening to the voices as they became more and more clear, more demanding. Waiting for lunch she chanted over and over, “I’ll fix this. I’ll fix it
“No” she said looking down to the floor speaking low and angrily. Katherine thought to herself What I hear is no one's business. I am not going to be fooled into confessing anything. I know what they are looking for and I know what to say to make them leave me alone.
“How are you feeling?”
“Fine”, she replied trying to give nothing away. Let them see that they had no right to bring me here. I’ve had done nothing wrong. This time I did not even hit Melanie, so there was nothing out of hand. The voices she heard never told her what to do, they just called her name quietly enough to make her know they were there, but never in charge. …show more content…
They do not make me feel better. I know what I need better than he.
She fumed as she thought about the unfairness of those pills, not the pills she liked to take. Dr. McKinney had made it clear to her,the staff, and to her family that she gets none of those that she had become so dependent on to make her feel happy and alive. He had taken great pains to make her hear him when he told her “We are only going to allow you to use the drugs that we provide. No more self medicating at home.” He told her family “Drugs that could actually help her, not just make things worse.” She heard every word and she was furious.
Didn’t they realize that this medicine they keep giving me is causing me to stress out. I only want to be calm. I want to be calm…calm. The stupid medicine is making it harder to play their game. On occasion, she had made admissions that she really had not meant to say. She told the voice inside her head, “This was getting dangerous for me.”
Once Dr. McKinney left the room, she laid on the bed waiting for the lunch hour. She laid on the bed and seethed. Listening to the voices as they became more and more clear, more demanding. Waiting for lunch she chanted over and over, “I’ll fix this. I’ll fix it