Junior year was when it all went ballistic. I originally had to go to the doctor to be evaluated for Depression. The first appointment I had the weighed me, did my blood pressure, all the normal things a doctor will do. By the end he told me I had Depression and should start medication then come back in two weeks for a checkup. So that’s what I did. Two weeks later, I came back. My doctor did the regular doctor duties. This time when I was weighed I was 3 pounds lighter. Already being underweight, this was a great concern to him, and he sent me to Briarcrest, an eating disorder clinic that’s part of Hershey Hospital. This terrified me. I didn’t think i had even the slightest bit of a problem. Sure I didn’t eat lunch or breakfast, but it wasn’t that bad. Still, I went for their evaluation.
Upon arrival, the first thing I noticed was a picture in the waiting room. There were butterflies all around it and it said,”Flying free to recovery.” I knew right then, this was going to be awful. They called my mom and I back and talked to …show more content…
I still have my bad days though. I can get through this. I will leave my distorted reality. The sense of control I felt from restricting will come from a different source. I will accept the help I am being offered. It will take a while, but I have a large team of people who care who won’t give up on me. I am loved and do not deserve to torture myself like I did. An eating disorder is a tough thing to deal with, but with the proper support, it does get better. I’m blessed to have the great people in my life who are helping me. They are my rock. I can get better, and all else who are suffering, you can