During John’s quest to find his identity a number of unexpected twists and turns occurred that John could have never predicted. When John started on the search for his identity, John as the narrator says, “One day, I always thought, she would tell me about it—when I was old enough to know the story. It was, apparently, the kind of story you had to be "old enough" to hear. It wasn't until she died—without a word to me concerning who my father was—that I felt I'd been cheated out of information I had a right to know; it was only after her death that I felt the slightest anger toward her” (37). John is led to believe that his father was a very smart and special character. The only things that Owen knew about his father was that he was from the aristocratic Wheelwright family, which later proved to be false. John’s mother misled him into thinking of his “amazing” dad. When Reverend Louis Merriel told John that he was his father John thinks to himself: “My mother was a healthier animal; when he aid he wouldn’t leave his family for her, she simply put him out of her mind and went on singing” (555). This just shows how Reverend Louis Merriel is the opposite of what John thought his father would be. John expected an aristocratic and upstanding man not a doubtful man who would abandon his child. John searching for his identity is a perfect example of how he could …show more content…
What John is showing by continuously searching for faith is how badly he needed to believe in a higher power. Another reason he repeatedly searches for faith is because when he finds faith in something, nothing turns out the way he expects it to. On the first page of the book John tells the reader, “I was baptized in the Congregationalist church, and after some years of fraternity with Episcopalians…” (1). John continues to talk about how many different religions he has gone to or believed in. Through all of this religions John decided to become a Christian because of Owen and the death of his mother. During John’s search Owen would always talk about this unspeakable outrage the Catholic church did: “It occurred to me that the Catholics had done this to her—whatever it was, it surely qualified for the unmentioned UNSPEAKABLE OUTRAGE that Owen claimed his father and mother had suffered” (146). Eventually, Mr. Meany told John that Owen’s birth was a virgin birth and the Catholic Church could not come to recognize it. John would never have expected Owen to be born by a virgin birth. John was dazed by this news because Owen never told John what the outrage was. John’s search for faith is a long road that might never end with him being