The small black piece of plastic toppled over, hitting the one next to it causing more and more to fall over. A loud sound of plastic hitting the kitchen table echoed until the last one fell over. This was the only way I knew how to explain my situation to my family, without the fear of being brushed away. I've thought of this situation many times before, use a bunch of dominoes to show how this works, let them have a visual before dropping the information on them.
"Could you help me set the table bucky?" My Nana used the endearment she uses for all of the grand kids, which always made me feel warm and loved inside. As she pulled out a beautifully baked pumpkin pie from the oven, I came traipsing over, grabbing a stack of plates before heading …show more content…
I could feel my heart beat a bit faster as I thought about the many reactions she could have for what I am about to tell her. Mustering all of my strength I get her attention. "Hey Nana..." My voice sounds quiet and quivers a bit. Picking up on that, my Nana turns and gives me her full attention. "What is it honey?" She says giving me a warm smile that always makes me feel safe and happy. "I wanted you to be the first one to know..." This was stretching the truth a bit because my friends already know what I am going to say, along with my mother, but I hoped this would lighten the load. "I am pansexual." I paused after speaking and watched her expression change from neutral to confusion. "I can develop crushes on anyone, regardless of their gender, I like their personality over what they are defined as." My voice shakes as I explain this, my hands fidget with the bracelet on my wrist, I look up at her and she smiles. "You are an amazing young woman, I will support anything you believe in." She pulls me into a loving hug and I hide my face in her chest, smiling. "Thank you Nana."
Moments like these can be terrifying because the outcome is always unknown. But once it is over with, you feel a weight be lifted off your shoulders and you can finally be happy with who you really are. This was my defining moment where I came to terms with who I am in life, and that I am grateful to have my family
"Could you help me set the table bucky?" My Nana used the endearment she uses for all of the grand kids, which always made me feel warm and loved inside. As she pulled out a beautifully baked pumpkin pie from the oven, I came traipsing over, grabbing a stack of plates before heading …show more content…
I could feel my heart beat a bit faster as I thought about the many reactions she could have for what I am about to tell her. Mustering all of my strength I get her attention. "Hey Nana..." My voice sounds quiet and quivers a bit. Picking up on that, my Nana turns and gives me her full attention. "What is it honey?" She says giving me a warm smile that always makes me feel safe and happy. "I wanted you to be the first one to know..." This was stretching the truth a bit because my friends already know what I am going to say, along with my mother, but I hoped this would lighten the load. "I am pansexual." I paused after speaking and watched her expression change from neutral to confusion. "I can develop crushes on anyone, regardless of their gender, I like their personality over what they are defined as." My voice shakes as I explain this, my hands fidget with the bracelet on my wrist, I look up at her and she smiles. "You are an amazing young woman, I will support anything you believe in." She pulls me into a loving hug and I hide my face in her chest, smiling. "Thank you Nana."
Moments like these can be terrifying because the outcome is always unknown. But once it is over with, you feel a weight be lifted off your shoulders and you can finally be happy with who you really are. This was my defining moment where I came to terms with who I am in life, and that I am grateful to have my family