In The Sacred Romance, by Brent Curtis and John Eldredge, new concepts were brought into my point of view about the pilgrim’s heart, intimacy, and arrows. Because of Curtis and Eldredge, I have looked back on my life on many experiences and took notice of how my life has been changed. In the chapter entitled On the Road (page 144) the concept of having a pilgrim’s heart is brought up. Having a pilgrim heart means to be alone so that you can understand the truth. When I question God’s plan, it is usually because I do not give enough time see what God is doing. I automatically question what God is doing in my life. This concept also applies to general relationships because there will be time when I do not understand a friend or boyfriend’s
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Looking back at first I could not think of any that stuck out the most to me. The more I thought, arrows began to flood back into my thoughts. During middle school, I was relatively confident. One day at lunch I walked by a table of boys that were a year younger than I was. I was fairly heavy for my age and one of the boys decided to let everyone at the table know along with myself. He turned to me as I walked by and exclaimed, “You’re fat.” This kid, not knowingly, shaped my confidence for the next four years. I no longer voiced my opinion because I thought, “Who wants to listen to a fat girl?” When I would go to dances, I never had a date and no one ever wanted to dance with me. Whenever a slow song came on I would be standing alone. I would run to the bathroom or make an excuse to leave the area so no one would know my pain. This continued to happen all the way until my senior prom in high school. This year I almost did not go to homecoming because I thought that homecoming was just another dance like high …show more content…
Middle school was beginning the immature stage which consisted of sex jokes, “that’s what she/he said” comments, and vulgar language. At the time, I did not understand the jokes or comments and I was curious but embarrassed to ask my mom. Curiosity got the best of me. But, instead of asking my mom I went to the one thing that answered all my questions before… Google. I searched “sex” into the search bar and obviously pornography sites flooded my computer screen. Being immature and naïve, I clicked on the first site and watched a video and then another and then another. This created my addition for five years. This arrow has shaped the way I see everyone around me. When I look at someone for the first time my first thoughts used to be pornographic images. I would not see people as people anymore. Now, I do not have this addiction but I still struggle with meeting new people. I am terrified to make friends because I know eventually I will tell them about how I was addicted. I am afraid that they will judge me and never look at me the same way. I am also afraid of relationships with guys because I am afraid my instincts revert to the pornography. I am also afraid that if I open up about this that the guy I am with will not understand and will judge me for my actions from the
Looking back at first I could not think of any that stuck out the most to me. The more I thought, arrows began to flood back into my thoughts. During middle school, I was relatively confident. One day at lunch I walked by a table of boys that were a year younger than I was. I was fairly heavy for my age and one of the boys decided to let everyone at the table know along with myself. He turned to me as I walked by and exclaimed, “You’re fat.” This kid, not knowingly, shaped my confidence for the next four years. I no longer voiced my opinion because I thought, “Who wants to listen to a fat girl?” When I would go to dances, I never had a date and no one ever wanted to dance with me. Whenever a slow song came on I would be standing alone. I would run to the bathroom or make an excuse to leave the area so no one would know my pain. This continued to happen all the way until my senior prom in high school. This year I almost did not go to homecoming because I thought that homecoming was just another dance like high …show more content…
Middle school was beginning the immature stage which consisted of sex jokes, “that’s what she/he said” comments, and vulgar language. At the time, I did not understand the jokes or comments and I was curious but embarrassed to ask my mom. Curiosity got the best of me. But, instead of asking my mom I went to the one thing that answered all my questions before… Google. I searched “sex” into the search bar and obviously pornography sites flooded my computer screen. Being immature and naïve, I clicked on the first site and watched a video and then another and then another. This created my addition for five years. This arrow has shaped the way I see everyone around me. When I look at someone for the first time my first thoughts used to be pornographic images. I would not see people as people anymore. Now, I do not have this addiction but I still struggle with meeting new people. I am terrified to make friends because I know eventually I will tell them about how I was addicted. I am afraid that they will judge me and never look at me the same way. I am also afraid of relationships with guys because I am afraid my instincts revert to the pornography. I am also afraid that if I open up about this that the guy I am with will not understand and will judge me for my actions from the