Reflection Response: My Relationship with Writing
Writing, for me, has always been challenging, never an easy task. I was put in ESL (English as a Second Language) and was there for most of my adolescent years. It has been proven that there is a very important correlation between writing and language development. As I began to develop the English language, I had to first develop my listening skills (I needed to receive instructions that would help me understand what my peers were saying), then speaking (Slowly, I began to come up with my my own unique ideas that I could present to my instructors and my classmates), then reading (I had to be accustomed to the sounds and spellings of the English language and make sense of the words others were …show more content…
This was not planned but rather a last minute decision. I figured, because I always wrote on my free time, It would be good to use writing as a way to improve my skills. The previous creative writing classes that I enrolled in weren’t challenging because I was required to write short stories and this appeared easier for me. My writing anxiety didn’t escalate until I took this class, a poetry class. Immediately, I saw myself back in Middle School, surrounded by students who were so talented at writing that I felt like the outlier. In fact, I was the outlier. I was met with the constant urge to write to please others, something that wasn’t as present before as it came to be. I felt like I was no longer writing for myself and this made me unhappy and dreadful. Before submitting an assignment, I would ponder on for hours, how will people react to my writing? Will they think too harsh of it? My fear of rejection immersed itself into my writing and made the act of sitting down and coming up with ideas tiring, at times, it was torment, which only created more fear. I began to dread the act of opening my laptop, staring into the bright light coming from the screen, and telling myself to write
Writing, for me, has always been challenging, never an easy task. I was put in ESL (English as a Second Language) and was there for most of my adolescent years. It has been proven that there is a very important correlation between writing and language development. As I began to develop the English language, I had to first develop my listening skills (I needed to receive instructions that would help me understand what my peers were saying), then speaking (Slowly, I began to come up with my my own unique ideas that I could present to my instructors and my classmates), then reading (I had to be accustomed to the sounds and spellings of the English language and make sense of the words others were …show more content…
This was not planned but rather a last minute decision. I figured, because I always wrote on my free time, It would be good to use writing as a way to improve my skills. The previous creative writing classes that I enrolled in weren’t challenging because I was required to write short stories and this appeared easier for me. My writing anxiety didn’t escalate until I took this class, a poetry class. Immediately, I saw myself back in Middle School, surrounded by students who were so talented at writing that I felt like the outlier. In fact, I was the outlier. I was met with the constant urge to write to please others, something that wasn’t as present before as it came to be. I felt like I was no longer writing for myself and this made me unhappy and dreadful. Before submitting an assignment, I would ponder on for hours, how will people react to my writing? Will they think too harsh of it? My fear of rejection immersed itself into my writing and made the act of sitting down and coming up with ideas tiring, at times, it was torment, which only created more fear. I began to dread the act of opening my laptop, staring into the bright light coming from the screen, and telling myself to write