I apologize for the delay since my last (first) post. Like I mentioned earlier publishing my own work has always been difficult for me. Heck, I still send my essays to my mom to be edited! Anyways for the past three months, I have attempted to push myself to continue with the whole "blog thing", but nothing has made it past the drafting stage. So why is this time different?
The answer is I'm not sure, it just feels like it's time.
A couple days ago while digging through YouTube, I stumbled upon a video that left me speechless. It's humorous how you can initially be watching one YouTube video and then two hours later are watching videos of people falling over. My watch history began with "Kate McKinnon SNL Clips", that quickly evolved into "Buzzfeed Worth It", from there it was "Cheat Day Challenges" ... ya get the point. Finally, I ended up watching a pilot for a new series called "BINGE". The video has roughly 330,000 views and at least 10,000 are from me... okay that's an exaggeration, but it doesn't feel like one. The video (episode?) follows a girl named Angela who is struggling with bulimia. I found her to be a relatable character. (Minus the fact that she is drunkenly sleeping around for comical mugs).
This is where this becomes more difficult to write.
I wouldn't say that I have an eating disorder, but I have had a history …show more content…
I rarely skipped family meals, but I was in control of what I ate for breakfast and lunch. Those meals were very controlled. Eventually, my routine became a smoothie (50% veg, 50% fruit, a little flax, and water) or eggs and veggies. Lunch was 1/2 cup of cottage cheese or greek yogurt and carrots. Depending on my diet phase at the time those would change, but these were the most common. I would eat an apple after I worked out because they make me feel sick and I didn't want to feel tempted to eat junk. Some days I was really good. However, it was an all in or all out kind of
The answer is I'm not sure, it just feels like it's time.
A couple days ago while digging through YouTube, I stumbled upon a video that left me speechless. It's humorous how you can initially be watching one YouTube video and then two hours later are watching videos of people falling over. My watch history began with "Kate McKinnon SNL Clips", that quickly evolved into "Buzzfeed Worth It", from there it was "Cheat Day Challenges" ... ya get the point. Finally, I ended up watching a pilot for a new series called "BINGE". The video has roughly 330,000 views and at least 10,000 are from me... okay that's an exaggeration, but it doesn't feel like one. The video (episode?) follows a girl named Angela who is struggling with bulimia. I found her to be a relatable character. (Minus the fact that she is drunkenly sleeping around for comical mugs).
This is where this becomes more difficult to write.
I wouldn't say that I have an eating disorder, but I have had a history …show more content…
I rarely skipped family meals, but I was in control of what I ate for breakfast and lunch. Those meals were very controlled. Eventually, my routine became a smoothie (50% veg, 50% fruit, a little flax, and water) or eggs and veggies. Lunch was 1/2 cup of cottage cheese or greek yogurt and carrots. Depending on my diet phase at the time those would change, but these were the most common. I would eat an apple after I worked out because they make me feel sick and I didn't want to feel tempted to eat junk. Some days I was really good. However, it was an all in or all out kind of