The Rise and Fall of my Narcissistic Confidence Confidence is often the key to success, but overconfidence leads to a loss of morals and interpersonal relationships, which I discovered throughout my adolescence. From the wrath of my parents to the scorn of my friends, my four years of high school were integral to shaping me as a person. These four years appeared to be my greatest, as I strode into school every day with a sunny complexion and a radiant personality. Unfortunately, this was nothing more than a falsehood that I convinced myself of. My father rebuked, “You need to talk to your teachers about these grades or deal with the consequences, now. Your mother and I aren’t going to hold your hand forever. It’s time for you to man up.”
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About three days after, however, this quick expansion of character would come to a crossroads. This precipitous halt arrived in the form of my friend group at the time, a merry band of cynical and nihilistic outcasts—individuals that could relate to my plight of stage fright with their own socially unacceptable flaws. Losing, or more accurately, covering up that very flaw, resulted in the destruction of the one thing that bound us together. This speedy rejection by the one group that accepted me convinced me that you can’t trust anybody—they’re willing to abandon you in a second. It was on this day that I was abandoned, nearly a week into my new personality, that my war with the world …show more content…
This conflict would be a war of words with skirmishes of smiles. I lost my naïve trust of others, and instead gained a twisted need for manipulation of others. People became tools. In classes that I did not immediately excel in, I found the smartest student and befriended them with the intent of using them for a good grade and nothing more, tossing them away when I was finished using them. While I am not entirely sure if things would change if they took a different course, it is certain that this ruthless attitude was key to my success throughout high
About three days after, however, this quick expansion of character would come to a crossroads. This precipitous halt arrived in the form of my friend group at the time, a merry band of cynical and nihilistic outcasts—individuals that could relate to my plight of stage fright with their own socially unacceptable flaws. Losing, or more accurately, covering up that very flaw, resulted in the destruction of the one thing that bound us together. This speedy rejection by the one group that accepted me convinced me that you can’t trust anybody—they’re willing to abandon you in a second. It was on this day that I was abandoned, nearly a week into my new personality, that my war with the world …show more content…
This conflict would be a war of words with skirmishes of smiles. I lost my naïve trust of others, and instead gained a twisted need for manipulation of others. People became tools. In classes that I did not immediately excel in, I found the smartest student and befriended them with the intent of using them for a good grade and nothing more, tossing them away when I was finished using them. While I am not entirely sure if things would change if they took a different course, it is certain that this ruthless attitude was key to my success throughout high