How can I find a single reason to stay alive when the shining light of yesterday is a promise on borrowed time? It’s a dream warped by sadness, a world in pieces that I am obligated to rebuild in her name. Success simply means we get to move on with our lives but move forward sharing the profits with friends. Failure is not an option for failure would mean we should kill ourselves for the disgrace of defeat would be too shameful to bear. We must make our company, we must create the dream, and we must, for we have never failed before.
We have never suffered a massive failure in our lives, in sports we had always placed, in education we were the very best, specifically history, we got merit scholarships and proudly hoisted several academic rewards with pride, even when we suffered a massive concussion and memory lost, we were still in the top 25 percentile. When we applied for college, we only applied to one, for I knew they had to accept me and they had the best mix of skillful teachers and desperation for money. What our family taught us most was that not matter how righteous you are, if you lack the conviction then you will simply be known as a good man, not a successful one. That is why I will win, for I have a desire to win. I have too much riding on this company and so do our friends, they are loyal and skillful, a combination we both know is lacking this day and age. It reminds me of the book, Infinite Jest, there was a tennis player who held a gun to his head while he played. The only difference between me and all my watchers is that I do not keep a gun to my head at least not in public. It’s rather humorous when I am praised for my friendly and caring nature, especially when after the day is done I go to my room and ask myself if I am worthy to live another day. It is important to ask this question, I ask myself it as if it was a casual as asking myself if I brushed my teeth before bed. I give myself exceptions once in a great while, especially when I have taken ill or similar situations. Failure to hit my personal quote was generally hit with depression though, for I truly felt unworthy to live if I can’t pull myself up. This is the struggle I am besieged with, I know you, the noble, the personification of all my family lessons; moral ambiguity, ambition, greed, tradition, the desire to be the top authority. I accept you are a part of me, but I will reject you as long as I can. I fear this is a losing battle, but maybe a middle ground could be found, one that will turn me into a successful businessman. We are both men of actions, we do not need to worry about our words for we perfer to show our ability in what we love. We both wield our weaknesses well in the field. Our Aspergers makes us more single minded, but in doing so it makes us more focused on the task at hand, with that knowledge we complete great amounts of work in a short amount of time. It is …show more content…
I hate rapists for they took Nora from me and I will surely make any I end up personally meeting suffer. I hate those that try to stand before me, obstacles in the way of my ambitions shall be moved aside, with as minimum force as needed. I tend to hate unpleasantries but once in a great while I will go out of my way for what must be done. I hate ideology too, but that is because I tire of hearing who’s good is better or which political party is worse, especially when we have so much propaganda, though I do admit I actively fought against a trump presidency because that man cared little about the American people. His recent actions over just the first month in office only proves how unqualified he is as a national leader so I forgive myself for the hypocrisy of my prior statement on ideology. I try to reason my hatred, if I hate for the sake of hate I stop myself and ask why, if I can’t find an answer then I continue on my path, unburdened by